I'm so fucked up in the head, don't even read this shit.
I’d rather say this gay shit on Tumblr so I don’t have to bring someone I know down. Holy fuck. All of my friend’s “relationships” are falling together perfectly and here I am drowning in my own jealousy when I should be happy as fuck. It’s just, I feel like I’m slowly losing them as fucking gay as that sounds. I don’t even know what to do, everything feels so fucking different. And I feel so fucking different because I don’t have some bitch for a “significant other”. I already tried “not giving a fuck”, but it’s oh so hard when you see them just being all affectionate and shit.
Fuck, I hate everyone. I don’t even think a whole new set up consisting of that one Creature deck I want, maybe some new Indys, some 54 Spitfires and some new bearings. It doesn’t make it any better that I lost my Heelflips, I can barely do them moving now.
So now I’m just wallowing here listening to some tracks by CYNE, Atmosphere, Binary Star, Blue Scholars and shit. Yeah. I’m fucking pathetic. Tell me something I don’t know. You’re now up to date with my lame ass thoughts.
God damn. Thinking does me no good, it only creates highly improbable terrible situations that I re-run in my mind. And I have so much homework still to do because I wasted time thinking and only about 42 minutes before my internet is shut off, which is crucial for my homework.
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.